today i made such an effort that i forgot i existed

i gave it my all and in it i lost myself completely

it was a heavy burden lifted on my shoulders

i took a a step into my immortality

into that which exists when i dont

the ground which i stand upon

it was empty

but the ultimate freedom,

there was no more expectation

nothing more to do

all possible goals or destinations,

vanished

it was full and rich like a spoon of pumpkin soup on a

cold autumn day

comforting and familiar,

comforting because it demanded nothing off me,

familiar because it was the same essence that i was born from

and that which i will die into,

i was not scared,

i didnt feel dead,

i felt released.