The ground of my strong identity

was pulled from underneath me

I fell helplessly into love

there was not the tiniest hint of choice in it

it was like from another world

something took me

and threw me into this state of falling

that i now find myself in

i can see the world passing around me

all the people i knew

minding their own business

doing what they were always doing

i never thought much about it

but looking at them from this perpective

its all meaningless

it all looks like things one might do when theyre trying to make time pass by

but this,

this falling

its this thing that comes from nowhere

but fills me up with the strongest of meanings

the meaning of no meaning

because falling in love

has no purpose, no end goal

it not something we do to make time pass

its something we completely give ourselfs to,

and in giving ourselfs to it,

for a moment we cease to exist

the place that for long

was filled with wants and dreams

is now a warm tingling and butterflies.