Save his ego! she exclaimed. Met with laughter and smiles. It was a funny joke to everybody in the boat. So today I was doing some kayaking rescue training. At some point we were talking about how to pull someone up out of the kayak from a smaller motorboat we use as a rescue boat. We were talking about different ways to do it and someone said a “silly” way to do it and my collegue made the joke: dont humilate him, save his ego!

Like all things in life it was excatly what I needed to hear. It never ceases to amaze me the way everything is just perfect. You get excatly what you need at excatly the right time, always. Its just a matter of attention. Today I had been feeling frustrated up untill this moment because i felt like my boss was treating me like somebody who knew nothing about kayaking, taking care of groups, and guiding! To give some context i just started a new job for the summer as a kayaking guide doing short day tours. I have finished a 2 year guiding school a year ago and have since then been working as a guide in diferent places. I feel qualified as a guide, which is why it was starting to get frustrating to me that he was treating me as a someone who never did anything kayaking or guiding.

My ego tolerated this and appreciated this beginner treatment he gave me the first few days but apparently something tipped today. I started to feel humilated. I felt like my pride was taking a beating, who is this guy? Treating me like i dont know anything? I was so caught up in myself.

Untill….

Save his ego! What a beautifull irony, thank you god, thank you universe for being so kind and beautifull. Always understanding, never ceasing to amaze. Indeed I was trying to save my own ego. I was holding on very hard to it. Putting up a heavy defence. Making up arguments in my head why i was actually qualified, why he was mistreating me, why i was right. I was acting in a way, trying to be cool, nonchalant, not very impressed, just to strenghten this position i had taken. Its a beautifull dance we are doing, me and this ego. Sometimes one is leading, then its the other one. At this point my ego was leading a little too hard, being a bit agressive. Then naturally, like this universe does, always seeking balance, it just gave me a little wink that said “hey, dont forget its just a dance”. I’m forever grateful to be living in and as this boundless wisdom, dancing to the tune of it. Thank you.