The freshness of experience is something that never ceases to induce marvel within me. How everything all around, all the time, is in fact a new happening. The world as it is appearing right now in this moment has never been done before! It’s raw. It’s clean. It is truly and deeply filled with potential. It is showered with potential. The potential to be anything in the next moment.

So in the spiritual circuits I’ve been around there is usually a talk going that the past and the future is just an illusion, that it doesnt really exists outside of our own imagination. That is something that I have subscribed to for a long time, and still do. What then is supposed to exist in contrast to these two illusions is the now, the present moment. But there has been a new slight perspective shift in this belief the last few weeks. I recieved it from a man called Stephan Bodian on a talk/series he called the direct approach. That series was supposed to be a alternative to regular guided mediations which usually consists of periods of silence (meditating) and then the “guide” talking every now a then. What Stephan instead did was talk all the time and skip the meditating. So in fact it was more of a talk, but sitting in a meditation posture and not doing anything else.

ANYWAY, the perspective he offered was that idea of now/the present moment is ALSO an illusion. Because that is in fact also something we are imagining. We can’t pinpoint our experience and split it into moments. The flow of life is truly like a river. Usually people say that you can never step into the same river twice. But in fact you cant even step into the same river once. There is no permanent river (even for a milisecond) and there is no permanent moment (even for a trillionth of a milisecond).

To me something clicked when I heard that, and when I write it, it does make sense. I hope it can resonate somehow with you aswell.

So in contrast to this, what is existance. Existance is existance. Its a continous flow, that never stops. Its ungrabbable. Simple as that. And within existance lies everything. Humanness, naturness, kindness, evolutioness, religiousness, emptiness, fullness. It is whole and seamless. For a long time I had trouble of seeing how everything could be “one”, even though I could hear people talking/telling/explaining it, I could nod, and feel that it sort of made sense. “Wow yeah that’s how it is” and then I would forget it quite quickly and the idea didn’t really impact my life at all. Obviously everyone was in there own body and they were not the same as me, I thought. There were obvious borders in the world that I felt you had to be slightly crazy not to see.

What is it that has changed within me? How can I describe concisly into words? I will give it my best shot by letting myself go and letting my beloved intuition write, my inner knowing:

WIthout nothingness there cant be somethingness. Can you tell me where nothing ends and something beings? It is impossible. Everything is connected, I can’t make any action happen in this world that is not dependant on something else. That goes for everything in the world! It is all connected! Everyhing is existsting together, pushing, pulling, influencing, being influenced. Without pain I couldnt feel bliss. Without not knowing I could never know. Where are the borders?

Perhaps these are the same words that I once heard and that never really made sense to me. If they are then I can only hope that they can be a springboard for you, a pointer for how experience might be like. I hope they create questions within you that lead you to insight, rather than create made up answers.

With lots of love,

Pontus